I guess I shouldn't read anything into it, but I feel hurt and frustrated. It's like when on their Internet radio show they talked about one of my acquaintance known to them in a different capacity through another social group. They went on about how fat, gross, and smelly she is. I couldn't believe we were talking about the same person and told them so, but she has a rather unique name. I felt so very bad for her, and I couldn't help but wonder if they felt the same about me.
I guess I should just let it go. It's very frustrating that the DM has these wonderful ideas, and because of the possibility of the cry of favoritism being raised, I'm only ever a bit player. What really pisses me off is the people he spends so much time and energy on to get involved couldn't care less.
In the mean time, I feel more cut off and isolated than ever.