I haven't been on here for a while as I've actually been doing blogging on SparkPeople. Things have changed since my last entry here. I'm much more calm, together and happy. I've set borders and boundaries with the people who have made my life more challenging, and then reinforced them when they objected. Ultimately, I'm happier being on my own priority list and putting myself, my husband and my kids up top and letting everyone else take care of themselves unless I've the time, energy, and inclination to help. My wonderful counselor and now dear friend has helped me to get to this point in my life. I'm finally learning to love myself as I am in this moment.
As I mentioned before, I am active on SparkPeople again. I started in January and have through a newly found love of exercise lost 60 pounds. I'm able to do most things without the cane I've been dependent on for the last two and a half years. I still need it morning and night for stairs, but can now leave it at home. I use it for ice, and hiking only. I have a long way to go, but I'm learning to appreciate what I've accomplished and love myself along the way.
I'll be posting my blogs from SP here as well now. I'm tired of only coming here to vent.